Free From Me
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Free From MeSummary:
Taking my husband back was the easy part?"rebuilding trust proved to be the real challenge.Article:
In January 2005, my husband and I reconciled. I had always said I wouldn't take him back if he cheated again, especially if a child was involved. However, life has a way of teaching us to never say never, particularly when faith plays a role.
I vividly remember telling my mother-in-law that my life with her son was over. She's a sanctified church mother and Evangelist with an extraordinary spiritual intuition. Sweet as peach cobbler, she softly questioned, "But did God say the chapter was over?" Her words lingered: “Until He says it’s over, it ain’t over, baby.”
Conversations with her often ended like that, with words I didn’t want to hear but needed to. There was a time she'd call at 5 AM to pray and proclaim, "Thus saith the Lord, and it is done," before hanging up. In retrospect, I smile at her wisdom; it was never truly about me.
The decision to reconcile was more than just obedience to God?"it was the beginning of a journey. Now, two years later, I am realizing what it means to be free. It's a process, not an overnight change.
My sister-in-law once sang a beautiful song shortly before a sermon by my mother-in-law. "I'm free, praise the Lord, I'm free. No longer bound; no more chains holding me. My soul is resting, it's just a blessing. Praise the Lord, Hallelujah I'm free." These words have ministered to me profoundly over the years. This freedom was not about my husband?"it was about finding freedom within myself.
I battled anxiety and turmoil, feeling a war within me. I wasn’t losing my mind, but I knew I could have. Peace of mind became my daily prayer. What value does money have without peace? True peace can't be purchased or exchanged; it's a gift.
Questions would plague me whenever my husband left the house. What is trust? The dictionary describes it as confidence, belief, assurance, certainty, and faith. In our case, trust had become rusty and worn out?"no longer TRUST but RUST.
Initially, my husband took every step to reassure me. He would call from work, during breaks, and on his way home. He tried his best, but shattered trust is challenging to rebuild. I faced a constant internal battle, feeling like my own enemy.
One morning, unable to reach him by phone, my mind spiraled. Thoughts of doubt and insecurity overwhelmed me. When he finally called back, I bombarded him with questions, forgetting the reason I called. It was a wake-up call?"this struggle was bigger than me.
I started praying daily: “Lord, keep him. If You don't, he can't be kept." I had to entrust my husband to a higher power, relying on faith to bring peace when I was alone.
Reflecting on my spiritual journey, I maintain a "resume" of what God has delivered me from. It's a reminder of my peace and sanity during difficult times. God wouldn't abandon me now. I refused to let the progress in my spiritual life be negated.
As women, we love deeply and hurt hard. Initially, I thought my husband had to do all the work to rebuild trust. But it was my trust, my issue. Ultimately, with God's help, I had to choose to trust again. Not by patching old wounds but by allowing God to create something new.
Guard your spiritual resume. Review it during struggles. If you don’t have one, start now?"even if just in memory. Do you have a peace section? I do.
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